I know what you’re thinking when you’re looking at me
I see it in your eyes and I don’t like what I see
But what your seeing is pain and misery
Sorrow & tears and trying to come through adversity
It’s been so long now I forgot the real me
Night after night I’m tossing in my sleep
His telling me in my dreams that he’s coming after me
These demons I’m fighting just won’t let me fucking be
This last year my world is upside down
Like the Jericho Walls when they hit the fucking ground
I don’t know who to trust I think I’m losing my mind
My life’s a dark room, I could swear that I’m blind
I’m nearly 25, not a spark in my life
All I’ve known so far is the struggle and the strife
Will I ever see the day when I’ve kids and a wife?
Thinking to myself YA that would be nice
So what the Fuck did I do with my life?
Now I’m looking back, man, some-things not right
Whatever I reached for was always out of sight
So please god just show me some light
My head wants to die but my heart wants to fight
Tell me Lord will this pain ever cease?
I know I’m fucked up but I don’t want to be deceased.
So guide me through this darkness, let me find inner peace.
– Paul O’Connell